Let the Journey begin!

Well here is the first entry of my journey. I could say "journal", but it really is going to be a journey. My mission is to document my new experiences through the Graduate program in UWG's Psychology program. I originally entered the program in 2005, but I left after having something of a meltdown and crisis. After three years, I returned and I am ready to take forth a new journey in my life.

When I first entered the program, I was determined and had my strict goals set. I generally knew what I wanted to study, I had a time frame mapped out, and I wanted very little to waver from it. Furthermore, I was still new and fresh in my relationship with Phil, but completely unaware of how it was affecting me and turning some of my long held thoughts, dreams, and ideals upside down! Everything came crashing onto me, piling up like discarded pizza boxes, and ultimately, I caved in and turned into a recluse and a hermit!

Having emerged from the cave that reminds me of Plato's Cave Analogy (which I just figure, I think I need to re-read today!), I am seeing the Sun through fresh eyes. Its kind of scary! I'm ready though.

To highlight some of the old, mixed with the new, that I am experiencing, I am posting a picture of the books for the Human Growth and Potential class I am re-taking. The first time I took the course was with a different professor on the last semester I was in school, the same semester that I had a hardship withdrawal. I hated the class!! Hated!! It was essentially a strict journal writing class that was highly therapeutic, and my mind and emotions wanted NOTHING to do with it! I had NEVER experienced such resistance! When I signed up for the class a second time, I was determined to open myself to the experience....and now, it seems, it will also be a different experience. Instead of the strict journal writing book, there are five books that seem to carry a more carefully introspective theme. I can't get the image of features and flight out of my head, and looking at the picture, you can see why.



This is such an interesting collection of books that I would have never expected in a class before. These are the kind of books I would expect on my mother's shelf, or in Oprah's bookclub...and a couple of them might have been! At the same time...I am excited! For the first time, I truly want to dive into the part of the my psychology departments more introspective and self-explorative side. The part of the program that, over three years ago, I used to chuckle and sneer at, like I was some sort of *higher being* looking down on the little ones going about their games. Now I think, looking back, I was very confused. There was a lot of opportunity for growth, and because I didn't take it, the Goddess took a bigger control of my life and threw me around a bit until I grew some sense.

So, here the journey begins. Where will I end up? I have no idea! I have some desires and wishes, but no strict plan. I want to grow and become a better person (don't we all?) and I also want to become a nicer and more loving person. I'm sure Phil will appreciate that!

Let the fun begin!